When Will Everyone Grow Up?

I have lived my entire life without antidepressants. And this has occasionally made life be incredibly difficult. On rare occasions, I despair about matters which are so trivial that it cannot really be explained. However, I also despair about events that are of this world. One of the reasons for despair is that I have practically no control about them. And this makes for a world which is unacceptable. The world in which we live, it is essentially a paradise, and it is poisoned. No modern political view, nor modern ideology seems to be able to get rid of the poison. And religion does nothing. Everyone is like little children. We are all distracted by the less important matters in life.